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Sorry to hear of your struggles. All I can suggest is the same thing needed to ride to begin with.........you have to find a balance. I know easier said than done but mostly all we can control is our reactions to things. Another cliche bunch of realistic crap I know. Just know that my username also is a hint into what you have going on and what we all deal with to an extent. It is i12ride because there is always something going on that tries to keep me from it....more and more often it seems. So much so that every time I roll out it feels like I am starting over. It helps keep me healthy in mind and body yet it is not the highest priority in my life.I've not ridden in so long now I'm at the point I'm afraid to start over. It all started my first trip out to Roanoke to work getting Covid followed by gut wrenching food poisoning. I lost, if I recall, over 20 pounds in 2, 2 1/2 weeks. No energy at all.
I got on a small role and did a few rides. THEN VDOT put drunk bumps (rumble strips ) on every road in the area. Went out and road and got pushed by a car a little close to them and it cost me a tire. Ordered a new tire, out it on and my bike has just set collecting dust...not even any indoor Zwift rides.
I can't find the motivation to start over. Honestly, I've got so much going on it's kinda scary.
On a side note, I just found a friend has stage 4 prostate cancer and it's REALLY made me think about life's priorities. It's got me questioning so much time away from family ( out on a bike and it's takes a lot of time)...when they lay me down 6 ft down, it won't be miles that counted in life. It will be time spent with family and grandkids.
And yes, in the end what will count is how much we love others, how much we serve those that are worse off than we are and what legacy we leave our children and grandchildren about how to live a good life. It is a tightwire and requires much balance. Head up, power through and know we are here to listen and help.